Thursday, 29 October 2020

OCTOBER TO REMEMBER






Isn’t it strange how suddenly things can change?





What started as a peaceful protest turned on its head after being hijacked by our very own Government and its sponsored thugs. Overnight the feeling of togetherness and hope young Nigerians relished for two weeks turned into sorrow and despair.









Tuesday, October 20, 2020 (now commonly referred to as Dark Tuesday or Lekki Tollgate massacre) will forever remain a turning point in our Nation’s history.









On the 3rd of October 2020, a video made rounds on
social media showing members of the Special Anti-Robbery Squad (SARS) dragging
a young man out of his car, shooting him, and taking off in his car. This led
to people going on twitter to lament the behaviour of the officers and clamour
for the unit to be scrapped. The hashtag #ENDSARS went viral on Twitter.





SARS is a notorious arm of the Nigerian Police force infamous
for extortion, killings, and harassment of young Nigerians simply because they
use an iPhone, have dreads or have tattoos, ride good cars or look different
from the conventional dressing.





This wasn’t the first time the public has spoken out against the particular unit of the police force. This dates back to 2016. To know about how the unit came about, read up this summary by Funmi Oyatogun for TVPadventures.









Following the tweet by Runtown on October 6, and a few other social
media influencers, about thirty persons made their way to the Force Headquarters
at Ikeja, carrying placards and sign posts to relay their message, seeking an
end to police brutality.





What started as a small group of protesters (initially meant to last 3 days of protesting) slowly grew into a massive protest nationwide (across mostly Southern, Eastern, and Western states) that lasted two weeks.









I won’t waste energy on the backward set of Northerners
belonging to the Arewa Youth Forum who were pushing a PROSARS campaign. I just
need to state this for the records. These are the same persons we Southerners
rally around asking for an end to Boko Haram. Well, I won’t use a section to
judge the entire North but I still won’t let it slide.





The protests across the Nation were very peaceful. However, what we were fighting against reared its ugly head as the Police in Abuja used tear gas and water tanks to disperse peaceful protesters.

















A tweet from Wizkid opened the gates for celebrities who were hitherto afraid to speak up silent to speak up. One bold tweet from Wizkid woke up a lot of persons and also drew the attention of some international artists. #ENDSARS fast became a movement.









Sadly, on the 10th of October, Jimoh Isiaka was killed by agents of SARS while maximum force and shooting of live bullets were used in dispersing peaceful protesters in Oyo State. This was met by wide outrage. This added fuel to the protests. More States joined the protests and streets were blocked and taken over. The protests remained peaceful.









On Sunday, October 11th, The Inspector General of Police announced via his Twitter handle that the Federal Special Anti-Robbery Squad has been dissolved across all the States of the Federation and also the Federal Capital Territory – Abuja effective immediately.









But we were not buying it. We had seen this script several times before. This wasn’t the first or second time the notorious unit will be disbanded. The police listed a five-point agenda which we refused and brought our own demands #5for5.









A few days later a new unit – Special Weapon And Tactics (SWAT)
team was announced to replace the defunct SARS. Soon enough, #ENDSWAT began to trend as well. The message was clear, an end
to SARS and not just a change in nomenclature. Crazy thing was that
investigations revealed the police already had a SWAT unit in operation.





The public has lost trust in the police. We went even harder with online and street protests. There was no backing down till real actions were shown towards the end of SARS. The rains couldn’t even stop the protests. That’s how determined young Nigerians were for a change. #ENDSARS isn’t just about police brutality, but an overhaul in the way the country is being run by the Government. We need a system that works and one with 100% accountability.









Major roads got blocked on a daily while the peaceful protests lasted. Going to and fro work became a hectic task as I always got stuck in traffic for hours. It was inconveniencing, but worth it. I had to wake up early daily, so I could go through before the protesters assembled. Each morning I saw cars parked by the roadside overnight due to the heavy gridlock.













Those who couldn’t go out to protest did so online. I have never retweeted that much before. Even at the office I took time out to retweet and join the movement. Sometimes I got overwhelmed and had to take daybreaks.









I have never felt so proud to be Nigerian. The youths came together as one voice and fought for change. I felt proud and empowered. The coordination, unity, donations, and all. It was everything - a promise that indeed there is a future for this country in our youths.









Lekki Tollgate fast became the centre point of the peaceful protests in Lagos. People slept there over night. Daily food and drinks were provided along with medical support. People volunteered to clean up at the end of each day’s protest.













The organisation by the Feminist coalition was top notch. Even when the Government-sponsored hoodlums started attacking the protesters, from the donations received, private security was hired and dispatched to various locations across the country. Is it not a shame that we had to hire security to protect us when we have the police?









Helplines and a call centre were all set up. A legal team efficiently helped in getting protesters arrested across the country released. It was amazing to watch young people come together, pull resources, and achieve so much in a few days more than this country has ever given us. With a few millions, an efficient ecosystem was set up to cater to every need, in contrast to the billions of naira wasted on failed projects by the Government.













On Friday 16th October, Candlelight/Festival of Lights was held in various locations across the Country (was also held in the United Kingdom and Canada on later dates) to honour those lost to police brutality. That night a lot of persons wept, both those physically present at the festival of lights and those of us who followed it online. There was strength and healing in our vulnerability.













Unfortunately, what felt like a promise for the future was
hijacked by the Government via sponsored thugs. This was a spur for them to
deploy armed soldiers to disperse attack the peaceful protesters. Due to
the mayhem caused by the Government-sponsored thugs, the Lagos State Government
announced a curfew on Tuesday, October 20. Let’s not forget that while the
thugs were attacking protesters, no policeman or army was seen trying to quell
the situation.





Adamant protesters stayed back at the Lekki Tollgate, holding the Nigerian flag and sitting on the road peacefully. While the day was still bright, warning tweets were sent out that everyone should vacate as a picture of some men taking off the cameras at the Toll Gate began circulating. At night fall, the lights at the toll gate was switched off, and then the army came with guns, firing live bullets at the protesters.









Even if the protesters defied the curfew and they needed to
be dispersed, what happened to water tanks? Tear gas? Why shoot into a crowd of
unarmed peaceful protesters?





The entire country fell silent. The feeling of despair could
be felt in each home. Instagram was filled with the picture of the Nigerian
flag stained with blood. These peaceful protesters sat there in the dark,
holding their country’s flag and singing the national anthem while their own
country shot at them.





Thank God for Dj Switch’s bravery. She was able to stream the events of that chaotic night on her Instagram live. This is one proof the Nigerian Government and Army can’t deny. Over 154,000 persons watched it, even International news media watched it. We all watched how they removed a bullet from the lap of one of the protesters.









Watching DJ Switch’s Instagram live broke me. I cried myself
to sleep that night. The entire nation was in gloom. The air was filled with
sorrow and broken spirits. This nation broke us all. I went on Instagram to
distract myself but everyone kept posting the blood-stained flag.





Writing this post breaks me all over again as I am forced to remember that traumatic night. I woke up by 5 am the next morning, all was well with the world for a few seconds and then I remembered. My world went dark and I realized it wasn’t a bad dream. It happened. I went online and I saw more horrible videos I missed on the IG live. The tears flowed freely till 6 am when I was able to force myself back to sleep as a way of escape.









When the protests had gained traction and the economy was
being disrupted significantly, we easily judged the older generation as weak.
That they didn’t fight, that they were docile and too quickly resigned to fate,
accepting whatever those in power gave them. If only we knew better.





Like Tunde mentioned in his email to me, he said while
listening to his Mum tell him stories of the ugly things under past
administrators, he noticed her depressed countenance. He finally understood
most of our older folks still have clear memories in their heads due to how
degenerated their minds have become following years of psychological abuse and
torture.  A lot of them haven’t
recovered. So it’s easy for us to judge them as weak and timid after all, those
of us born at the time were just kids with no memories of the past.





Now imagine if they have seen this repeatedly despite years
of activism, compared to us who collectively had our world stopped the night of
the Lekki Tollgate massacre. As I write now, we are still not even healed or
moved on from that day. Those of us who seem to have things together have taken
the easy route of detaching and shutting it out for our sanity’s sake.





For once, I knew what collective grief feels like. We had so much
vigour and momentum, then next moment it felt like cold water had been poured
on us all, and our fire went out. My heart still bleeds. I still get triggered
when I drive past remains of burnt tyres. For once, the every jovial Country
went silent.





We are broken but we will never forget how a democratically
elected government ordered the army to shoot at its unarmed citizens.





We thought we had seen the worst of it, but soon enough we
realized the Government was not done breaking our spirits. They rolled out
their “clean-up” plans, even going as far as denying the events of that Black
Tuesday night. The Lagos State Government started with the lies that there was
no casualty. He did mention forces beyond his control…but then the army said it
was all photoshopped. Wow! Photoshop an Instagram live stream? Seriously??





To add salt to injury, the President gave a very insensitive and
aloof broadcast way after 24hours. The speech, in summary was a threat to the
citizens to desist from exercising their rights to protest and a warning to the
International community to mind their business. He couldn’t even acknowledge the
Lekki Tollgate shooting. Not even a reference or comfort words to lives lost.





There have been several propaganda going on to discredit the
horrendous actions of the Army on that dark Tuesday night. The question of who
ordered the shooting at peaceful protesters has been left unanswered. The Lagos
State Governor admitted recently after being grilled on CNN that the army shot
at the protesters. This was days after his denial and claiming it was forces
beyond his control.





The next day, the army released a statement saying the Lagos
State Government invited the army to help control the protests. It’s been a
week of hearing trash and insensitive statements from those who are supposed to
lead us. The entire system is broken and filled with nonentities.





For those who have let the Government gaslight them and cast
doubts in their minds about the events of Lekki Toll gate, it’s quite a pity.
Worse are those who have chosen to act smart and turn into some form of
conspiracy theorists questioning if any one died. As if, no death makes the
army shooting at peaceful protesters with the lights turned off any less of a
crime.





This was very personal to me. I muted and unfollowed a lot of
persons and brands on Instagram who were so insensitive posting unrelated
matters, especially the Nigerian brands and citizens who didn’t realize that
this fight was for all of us. For the black Americans who we all collectively
joined to fight when the Black Lives Matter took centre stage, it was sad
seeing that they held on to their ignorant notion that being black is exclusively
for them. Their silence was very loud and duly noted.





We can’t all be activists, but we should all be socially conscious.









Like I tweeted a few days ago, for me, denying the events of
that Tuesday night is like denying the Holocaust and I won’t have that near me.
I’m ready to block and unfriend anyone who wants to spit on the graves of the
lives lost in this fight against police brutality.





Yes, the government seems to have gotten away with their
atrocities but all is not lost. One thing is for sure, this has caused a
conscious awakening in the youths. We may have been beaten down, but that’s
just for now. We are not going to give up fighting for a country that works, we
will keep pushing and we will take back our country.





Two things we can take away from the #ENDSARS protests are –





1. Nigerians are good people and this generation goes beyond tribe or religion when it’s for a good cause. Case in point – this protester’s picture was shared and people were asked to donate to get her a prosthetic leg. Within two days more than enough was raised.









2. Contrary to what most of us had concluded about our country, this country can work. Feminist collation proved this.









There have been statements from the International community and
Governments against the shooting of peaceful protesters but in my opinion, they
have been weak statements not going to be backed by any action. To be honest,
we are on our own. This is our fight and we will have to fight it to the end
ourselves. This country belongs to all of us and as Aisha Yesufu said, no
Nigerian is more Nigerian than any Nigerian.





The Government may try to deny and come up with lame embarrassing
tricks, but shame on them. They are only making a fool of themselves and
showing how low their mentality is. I mean Babatunde Fashola (Minister for
Works) made a big shame of himself walking up to that camcorder placed at the
toll gate days after the place has been swept, acting like some Sherlock Holmes
who discovered evidence.





I told someone who asked if the Government thinks we are daft
to believe the foolish display by Fashola, that this is not about us being daft
or gullible. It’s in fact, a reflection of how limited their reasoning and
sense of creativity is for them to come up with such. Quite unfortunate that
these are the people in charge of leading this nation. Little wonder why things
keep growing worse daily.





They can try but they won’t be able to erase history. There is already a Wikipedia page and Nairametrics has a page documenting the daily events from the start of the protests to date (it is updated daily).









The street protests may be over in Nigeria, but the fight is still on. We are not going to relent in our quest for change and accountability.









We will heal from this, but we will never forget. In our
grief, we will grow stronger and the unity of the youths that so much threatens
this Government will prevail.





All hope is not lost.









To all the souls lost to police brutality, before, during, and after the protests, your deaths shall not be in vain. We shall continue to say your names.









#ENDSARS


Saturday, 12 September 2020

ONE BREATH AT A TIME (Surviving anxiety)


“and to be honest, there are days where I get super low and I really don’t know why. Like the day could be going perfectly okay but there’s this emptiness that runs within me. I just feel to isolate myself from everyone and everything just to hide, to bury myself under my blankets and make my bed my grave. And I try to think of reasons as to why I’m sad but I cannot and I just end up making all these scenarios in my head that may never happen but they make me even more upset, they make more tears fall and then can’t help it from happening.” – thesmilingAKH





I’ve
been struggling with anxiety for couple of weeks now. A few days ago it got intense,
I had to find a quiet corner to try and fix me. The funny thing is, I seem to
wear it well, functioning seamlessly that no one can guess the war going on
within me.





I
could be laughing with you and interacting properly but deep down, miles within,
I’m trapped in a hollow, using up so much strength to stay whole. Most people
don’t catch it. Ivan almost did early last month while we were having lunch. He
asked what was wrong, that I looked lost in thought with a worried look. I
brushed it off as nothing, willing myself back to the conversation even though
my mind was fighting to keep my mood up. This struggle can go on for days such
that when I finally pull myself out, I feel lifeless and my mood sinks so low.





This
has been me for years and it’s a miracle I’m still here because there are times
I have had it bad I begin to fantasize about ways to make it stop and wish I
never existed. Words will fail me to explain how I feel, heck I can’t even
explain where the sudden feeling of doom and pictures of horrible things
happening start appearing from. It’s tiring having to intentionally kick these images
and thoughts out every time. Like Funke said while we were exchanging
experiences, she said it feels like there is a hammer about to fall on her.





You’ll
think I should be used to this by now or that it gets easier, or maybe it does.
I mean, I have learnt to identify my triggers and avoid them or use positive
affirmations to keep calm in situations where avoidance isn’t possible.
Breathing exercises have also been of great help. I never rated positive
affirmations but surprisingly they have helped calm me down a lot this year.





Sometimes people want to be kind and of help, but then they make statements like ‘try not to worry’ or ‘stop thinking too much’, while these are valid advice, it goes way deeper. If it were that simple, I wouldn’t have been placed on medications on different occasions in the past to treat anxiety and panic attacks.





These days I don’t bother talking about it or try to explain it to people, no one truly gets it except they have dealt with it or are dealing with it. Trying to get people to understand my struggle most times stresses me out even more.









Sometimes
I look at pictures of myself smiling effortlessly and it makes me marvel at how
deceptive pictures can be.





These
days, people let you see what they want you to see and we are all rather now so
good at presenting a happy face, even if deep down our world is falling apart. The
world these days prizes on projecting everyone as strong and happy, almost like
it’s a crime to feel down and admit to not being okay.





Society
now encourages a culture of silence, where no sad face is needed to be a party
pooper. We are all looking for skits and memes to distract us from the real
pain the world is filled with. I’m done with empty conversations and always
appearing put together and having my shit intact.





What
I have learnt, is the best way to set yourself free is to admit your flaws.
Embrace the shame and you’ll be amazed how free you will be. Living life with your
eyes over your shoulders all the time has got to be suffocating.









I
look at my pictures at times and I see someone else. I see smiles like I’m not
that guy who all of a sudden feels the air thinning, or has this crippling
feeling that something tragic is about to happen or that the happiness he feels
is going to be cut short soon. I talk and laugh a lot at work, maybe to
distract myself from the things I’m running from.





I look at my smiling pictures and it beats me that it’s the same guy who for no reason goes so sad and feels the weight of the world on him and wants to tear up for no reason. It’ll probably shock my colleagues, but I guess those who I have casually told in passing that I’m sad and then disappear for a while will understand it better now.









Those
times I go AWOL, I’m likely in the lunchroom taking me-time or quietly speaking
positive affirmations to ease my anxiety or you may catch me at the staircase
resting my head against a wall or I’m probably in the restroom taking deep
breaths or those times I hug peeps randomly, it’s not because I’m feeling
affectionate. It’s sort of therapeutic for me as it gives me calm, even if it’s
for a few seconds. I’m getting quite good at using people for relief without
them knowing. Like asking we take a walk and talk about nothing serious or going
to a colleague’s house to sleep off for most parts of the day because my own
home doesn’t feel like a haven for me anymore.





I
closed early at work mid last month and didn’t want to go home. I purposely
stayed back till it was late evening so when I got back home the chaos/pain
won’t be much to live through. Very early the next morning I got ready and
drove out because I needed to escape.





I
prayed for peace, that the storm my younger one was facing would cease and
everyone would be fine. Mostly it was about me because my anxiety was being
heightened. Every sound, every slight word got my heart palpitating despite how
hard I tried to detach or not let shit affect me. God answered my prayers but
not the way I expected.





We
are back to hospitalization. I just accepted it and said, the ways we think our
prayers will be answered are never the way God goes about it. His ways are
indeed higher than ours and so are his thoughts. I didn’t fight or question, I
accepted it because the house felt peaceful once again.





But then, my mind has decided to play tricks on me. Trying to paint pictures of things going wrong after discharge from the hospital and relapse happening again. The thoughts bring this unexplainable feeling of doom, darkness, and hopelessness.





“Thoughts
Sometimes, I just can’t control my thoughts
No medication’s ever made them stop

Yeah, I swear to God I’m trying
But I don’t know how to be
How to be a good friend to me”
– Thoughts (Sasha Sloan)





I
have managed to silence these thoughts and was making progress before something
happened at work which threw me off. As Account officers, we are sometimes
summoned by regulatory bodies when there is an investigation on our clients. I
have dreaded this for over six years and have always found a way of escaping it
in the past.





It’s
not like it’s a bad thing per se, more of an inconvenience no one wants to go
through. Though it’s mostly inevitable, especially for persons working out of a
team like mine. So the inevitable happened and I had to go through the right of
passage. I was told by the liaising team that mine was not a big deal and it
would be routine stuff. True to what they said it wasn’t and I was out of there
in no time, much to the surprise of my colleagues.





I
thought I was okay.





I
know I felt someway being in their premises but it didn’t hit. An hour after I
had settled back in the office, I heard myself tell a colleague I need to calm
my head and nerves as the visit was telling on my mental state. The thing is, I’m
not even done. I could be called anytime to drop by if my attention is needed.





I’m
working on blocking out the thought that I have this inconvenience hanging over
my head. I felt sick that day. I remember the morning of the appointment, I
woke up by 3 am and couldn’t sleep till the break of dawn. I felt like absconding;
pack a few clothes and go on a road trip to wherever and let the cup pass me
by.





This life is just one problem after another, it never really stops.





“So many things wey dey bother man
Stress from friends and family and brotherman
Man living like an animal
When a problem goes
Life comes with another one”
– Airplane mode (Fireboy DML)





Mark
was telling me the other day to keep doing me and eventually, I will pull
through. As sweet as his words were, it only magnified the fact that I don’t
think this is ever going to be over. This struggle feels like it’s a part of me
and it’s a cross I will have to carry. I’m making peace with this and also
contemplating going back on medication (hoping this time it doesn’t come with
health complications like the last time).





I
have made progress accepting that its part of my journey. To have downtimes and
overwhelming moments. That I will breakdown once in a while, but what matters
is I take care of myself and get back up again.





I
used to feel I failed myself whenever I have a breakdown, like I thought I had
healed and grown past this, but then life happens, things hit hard and I
breakdown yet again. In my post on Instastory early this year I was giving
myself props that I haven’t had a meltdown for months and I termed it growth.
Nah, I was wrong.





I realize measuring if I have a breakdown or not was me putting unrealistic pressure on myself. Truth is, as long as life goes on, shit will happen. I’ll always feel every emotion (most likely more than the average person does) and will need a time out to recharge. I am making peace with this and accepting that it’s okay to breakdown. What’s key is, being able to know when I’m getting overwhelmed and taking a break to cater to my health and then get back up from where I stopped.









Sounds
very powerful and easy, yea?





But
I won’t deny its tiring. I’m tired of having to live life walking on eggshells
because of a fragile mental health state. One of the reasons I don’t want to
work in a structured organization for much longer, asides having full control
of my time, is because I want to set myself free of the prison of expectations and
the curse of ambition. I want to break free and leave all these behind, go into
the wild and live and breathe freely. A quiet life is what I crave.





I’m so careful about certain things. I have to write down short term financial plans, plan every detail, pick out a week’s clothes and shoes and have several papers where I jot down short term plans. From afar, one will think I am well put together and articulate but won’t know these are all tactics to surviving anxiety. I thought I was in this alone till I saw this on Instagram.









Dealing
with this and then also dealing with social anxiety is quite a lot, it gets so exhausting
at times. I’m left planning conversations ahead or wasting energy going over conversations
to be sure I acted right and didn’t leave a weird impression. I realized I was
killing myself and I choose to avoid these as much as I can. I know I can get
distant at times, but I guess this is me admitting my issues and letting you
know that most of the time, it’s not you but me.





I
find it odd that we are all preaching choose yourself when it comes to one’s
mental health, yet we fail to understand when someone actually does this.
People say detach and take time off if you need to, but when you do, they pick
offense. It’s like people say these things to appear woke but don’t want you to.
Of course, everyone needs you to be there for them. The world is now all about
using people not minding if the other person is drowning.





Maybe
my head is fucked up and I’m a host of baggage, but I’m fortunate to have found
ways to fight these battles and learnt how to take it one breathe at a time. I
tell people I hate stress but what I mean is, I hate anything that seems to
suffocate me and makes life overwhelming because as it is already, every day has
me fighting to breathe.





Yes, I leave a trail of a mess in form of destroyed relationships and friendships while trying to navigate out of my downtimes. I’m still learning how best to handle things, but people need to understand that sometimes silence from someone isn’t about them. People should learn to accommodate other people’s needs for space and let them be. I have once been forced out of my healing process because she failed to understand I needed time to deal, the aftermath was me crashing and going full outburst on her.









I have decided to detach and even make myself less accessible for the now. I’m so spent and done with my saviour complex, I’m currently at a place where I want everyone to return pieces of my shoulder I have given out. I need to gather my strength and love for myself. I want the world to let me be and allow me to be by myself and love myself so tenderly even if it’s for a minute.









I’m done with the smiles, with the jokes while feeling empty inside. I want to detach from everyone and I don’t care if my colleagues start getting worried. Something in me feels broken and I want to be there for myself. I’ll help out where I can, but if I don’t have the strength to, please bear with me and understand that I just want to breathe.









Work
has sort of resumed almost fully now. I go to the office more these days with lots
of transactions and training. I miss those days when time slowed; working from
home with more time on my hands. I miss the quiet and seemingly slower pace of
life even though after a while it got boring. Elohor was telling me the other
day about how she didn’t leave her compound for four months during the lockdown
period. I asked if it was weird that it’s that kind of life I crave. The quiet
life where things are not happening all at once, leaving my head full and
overwhelmed.





Right now, I’m trying to catch my breath, to free up space around me and slow down time. I’m going to delete my social media apps soon and withdraw. I feel like I need some time with myself, with my curtains drawn and the lights off. I need some quiet. I do hope people will understand and respect this.





“But sometimes
E dey be like say I wan manya oh
All the pressure and the wahala oh
E dey be like say I don tire

I just wanna be alone
I don’t wanna see no message on my phone
Nothing dey do me
You should know
I just feel like I should do this on my own
I just wanna be alone”
– Airplane mode (Fireboy DML)


Friday, 21 August 2020

MUSIC REVIEW - TOP EPs FROM FIRST HALF of 2020


Extended Plays commonly referred to as EPs are best described as longer than a single (one track) but shorter than an album (compilation of many tracks). Albums can also be referred to as Long Plays (LPs). On average, an EP consists of 4 to 6 tracks, unlike LPs that have from 8 Tracks upwards. There is however no specific standard; Kelly Rowland’s last EP has just three tracks, while Ed Sheeran’s last EP has 15 tracks. But most usually have a maximum of 5 songs. I hate EPs where all the tracks are remix versions of just one song, seriously what's the idea?





Why EPs? For one, they are cheaper and easier to produce compared to LPs. New artists use it as a promotional tool to build their fan base before their debut album release. Also, established artists use it to stay relevant between major album releases. Others use it as a means for artistic freedom. EPs come in handy when an artist wants to experiment with their sound.





EPs are not judged critically as full-length albums, hence the free hand given to artists by their record labels over the control of the material on their EPs. I love EPs because they show the true artist. There is rarely the issue of overproduction that overshadows the authenticity of the songs. EPs allow artists to express themselves freely.





Most songs on EPs eventually find their way to LPs (I’m not a big fan of this, especially when half the songs on the album are from a previously released EP).





Like I previously mentioned in my last post, EPs got to me more at the beginning of 2020 than full-length albums. I have made a countdown of my favourite EPs from the first half of 2020 (January to June) starting from my favourite -





1. The End of Everything – Noah Cyrus









The first single off this EP - ‘I was so high that I saw Jesus’ got my interest piqued. I was expecting a full album release, especially as she had dropped three promotional singles that were not on her first EP.





The End of Everything EP shows the vulnerable side of Noah and had me appreciating her even more than I did when I heard her Make Me (Cry) song she did with Labrinth back in 2017.





My favourite track on the EP is ‘Ghost’. This song mirrors me, especially those moments when I feel lost.





‘And when you’re looking in the mirror
Demons may be closer than they may appear
You can even cry and sit, and stare
When trying to run away, I’m tryna run away
'





2. Things I wanted to Tell You – Kina









I have probably
played the first single off this EP – ‘Get
you the moon’
a million times between when I first heard it last year and
now. The song gets to me every time and warms me up, even though there is no
particular person I attach to it.





Tiktok made the second track - ‘Can we kiss forever?’ popular. The EP feels like a too little too late letter to an ex-lover you didn’t let them know just how much they truly meant to you while you guys were together. Kina's voice is filled with regret, flowing well with the mellow pop production on the songs as he lets his honest feelings know.





3. Joel Adams – Joel Adams









This was a lucky download. I was drawn by the loneliness expressed on the album art. It was love at first listen. I felt every word, especially on my favourite track ‘Slipping off the edge’. The darkness in the song feels so comforting mostly because it says everything I feel when life gets overwhelming. He sings - ‘I don’t want to see no doctor/Just so he can sit down there smiling/Pretending that they know my history/Like he has any idea’.





The verses and chorus hit even darker than these lines, however, these lines are part of how I feel about therapy. The whole idea of opening up to a stranger to psychoanalyse me doesn’t fully sit well with me.





4. Made Up Lost Time – Kevin Garrett









Another lucky download. The dark album art drew me in. Asides the beautiful songwriting, I love the mellow pop production on the EP. It makes for an easy and calm listen. The songs are centered around Kevin navigating his personal growth with his lover. It's about him trying to grow from his old self to a new person he hopes his lover still loves. My favourite tracks are ‘Tell you how I'm feeling’, ‘Factor in’ and ‘Can’t come back now’.





I relate so well to the lyrics of ‘Can’t come back now’ – “I swear we can’t fix something we cannot figure out/but I know it, you know it…when it all settles down/but we can’t come back now”





5. Winter Hurts – Jacob Whitesides









From his first EP
to the last album, Jacob has gotten better. On this EP, his growth can’t be
missed. This is his most mature effort yet. My stand out track is ‘God took a bow’ which is about someone
he is deeply in love with and is in awe of how much magic they make while
together.





When I first saw the song title, I thought it would be one of those controversial songs about God, but turns out he was appreciating his lovers perfect looks, such that God took his time creating her. You know how when you've performed excellently, a panel of judges tells you to take a bow as you have nothing else to prove.





The EP is made up of stripped-back pop ballads with minimal production, giving his vocals a solemn feel.





6. In Between Minds – Rhys Lewis









I can’t exactly
remember how I came across this EP or Rhys Lewis, but my strong guess is, I
heard the first track ‘Hold on to
happiness’
on one of the Apple music playlists I saved.





This is a
stripped-down EP which gives a calming feel on the listeners. The EP is
centered on hope and loss. I love the gentleness of the EP and how the songs quietly
transition.





On ‘Better than Today’ he sings over minimal production (as with most of the tracks)– ‘Times get tough/But I don’t give up/’Cause I know I’m not alone/’Cause we’re all reaching for something/We’re all craving change/Hopin’ tomorrow is better than today’.





The way he stretches his voice on the bridge of this track, carrying the emotions in each word, breaks me and gets me all up in my feelings. This song saves me every time.





7. Hold It Together – Jp Saxe









I discovered Jp Saxe one evening when I stumbled on a video of him and some other artists singing ‘If the world was ending’ through one the video conferencing apps on youtube. I had to go check out the original track which features Julia Michaels. Next thing, I was hooked on the entire EP. ‘If the world was ending’ is the most popular track on the EP, but other songs like ‘Explain you’ and ‘Hold it together’ are just as good.





I love the mellow sound of the EP and also the great lyrical content. This is the kind of EP you listen to while drifting to sleep, thinking of love lost.





8. Cape Elizabeth – Noah Kahan









I’m no stranger to Noah. I’m familiar with his previous EP - Hurt Somebody and full-length album – Busyhead. Cape Elizabeth EP has Noah delivering an outstanding acoustic folk album. Impressively, the EP was written and produced in one week, during the wake of the coronavirus pandemic earlier this year.





The songs are about life, uncertainties, and reassurance. This EP helped calm me a lot of times when life felt overwhelming and confusing during the peak of the lockdown period.





9. Bubble – Ant Saunders









A debut EP from the 19year old who found fame with ‘Yellow hearts’ after the song went viral, thanks to TikTok. The song’s large streaming numbers earned him a top 20 spot on Billboard Hot 100. Interesting how this track was initially released independently on his graduation day last year. The success of the song earned him a record deal and led to the release of his first EP – Bubble.





This is an impressive debut from him, mostly as the EP in its entirety was written, recorded, and produced by him. The EP is a feel-good mix of pop and R&B with a bit of retro vibe. My favourites are ‘Yellow hearts’ and ‘u know it’s real’.





10. Watching You – Robinson









This is another
artist I discovered on one of the Apple music playlists I listen to. The EP is
about heartbreak. The four-track EP feels like a build-up to the last track ‘Watching you’, which is the core of the
EP and also its title track. To watch the one you love move on and love someone
else, has got to be one of the hardest things to deal with.





On ‘Watching you’ she sings – ‘I’m too tired to pretend last night didn’t hurt/When you called me a friend/And it wouldn’t be the first time you made cry/You don’t even know why/And I’m watching you as you watch her’.





My favourite
tracks are ‘Lie to me’ and ‘Watching you’.





Bonus





11. Self Portrait – Sasha Sloan (Released 2019)









Though released
last year, I came across the EP first half of this year. The lyrics are very
relatable and helped me navigate the feelings I was processing. Like the EP
title goes (Self Portrait), the songs are introspective. From struggles with
anxiety, depression, uncertainties, and not fitting with societal standards,
each song deals with issues almost everyone can resonate with.





On the opening track – ‘Thoughts’ she sings





‘Thoughts
Sometimes, I just can’t control my thoughts
No medication’s ever made them stop
All I think about is everything I’m not
Instead of everything I got
….
Yeah, I swear to God I’m trying, but I don’t know how to be
How to be a good friend to the voice inside my head that’s telling me I’m okay’





The songs have minimal production, allowing her vocals center stage. The lyrics are dark, honest, and vulnerable, carrying so much weight we all feel in our daily lives.





The darkest song on the EP is ‘Too sad to cry’ which is about depression and feeling helpless, she sings – ‘I’m not suicidal/But sometimes the lines get all blurry/Yeah, I cut my hair/Closed the blinds/Played Hallelujah like two dozen times/And yesterday I tried to pray/bt I didn’t know what to say/I’m too sad to cry’.





12. Waiting for Departure – Adam Agin









While cleaning out my bookshelf recently, I came across a DVD compilation of rock songs my then girlfriend in the University gave to me. One song that came to mind was Adam Agin’s Please don’t leave quite yet. I reached for my phone to check him out on Apple music. I saw he had an EP out this year already. The first two tracks on the EP are such a pleasant warm delight.





Due to how good the EP was, I found myself listening to his entire discography on Apple music which turned out to be worth it.





13. all the things I never said – Tate McRae









I got to know
about Tate McRae when I heard her single – ‘You
broke me first’
on one of my saved Apple Music playlists. Though this
single is not included in her debut EP (released after the EP), it led me to
the EP.





Two out of the
five tracks on the EP (‘Stupid’ and ‘Tear myself apart’) were co-written
with Billie Eilish.





The EP reminds me of certain issues I dealt with when I was a teenager. Tate was able to channel her teenage struggles, both personal and those arising from interactions with her friends and her environment into a decent pop EP.


Wednesday, 29 July 2020

MUSIC REVIEW - MY TOP ALBUMS FROM FIRST HALF of 2020


It’s nice
to note that Covid-19 has got nothing on music releases. Well, even though it
led to tours being cancelled or moved to next year, artists were still able to gift
us with albums. Suck it covid!





For me, 2020 started a bit slow on the music scene. Mostly, it was EPs I was feeling before the ‘good’ albums started rolling in. I had already marked the release date for One Republic’s album, only to open apple music on the supposed release date and see they pushed it back to December 31!!  My heart broke.





Sam Smith also
pushed back his album release and scrapped the album name. Based off his
released singles - ‘Dancing with a Stranger’, ‘How do you sleep?’ and ‘I Feel
love’ (Donner Summer cover), I was expecting a different sound (Dance pop and
Disco) from him.





However, he
released – ‘To die for’ and also included the last year single - ‘Fire for fire’
on the album track list (these songs are his regular sound). He further released
another single – ‘I’m Ready’ featuring Demi Lovato which was back to the Dance
pop genre. The album was fast beginning to sound too experimental and a bit
disjointed, besides he had released almost half the songs on the album as
singles. I’m trusting his decision to rework the songs on the album will pay
off real good.





I’m highly
anticipating his new single with Bruna Boy titled ‘My Oasis’. It has to be
nothing short of magic. I screamed when I saw Sam’s announcement on his Instagram.
I doubt this paring ever crossed anyone’s mind.





After compiling this list I realized that it was comprised of majorly male artists/bands. I remember the uproar that greeted the Grammys a few years back over lack of representation of female artists in the nominations. I went through my last year list and saw it was male dominated as well. It got me wondering, were the women pulling the gender card or are they really not that great artists as the male folk or is there truly marginalization of female artists?





I mean, I’ll
say most of the greatest voices in music are from female artists but when it
comes to commercial success, the music industry is male dominated. Maybe the
root cause is, record labels not signing enough ladies? Or what do you think?
Even when shortlisting albums, the number of albums from the male folk almost
doubled those released by females this year. Have you ever noticed this
disparity in numbers amongst the sexes in music?





Without much further ado, here’s a countdown of my favourite albums from first half of 2020 -





12. Horizons – Surfaces









This is a feel good album sure to brighten your day. Even the album art breathes hope and positivity.  The kind of album needed in these weird trying times. 2020 has been a lot and I personally have had moments of mental struggle with all that’s been happening and this album always has a way of lifting my mood. The album is a mix of pop, reggae, jazz and hip hop to give a collection of summer jamz one can listen to on a lazy day.





Favourite Tracks – Take it easy, Sunny side up, Remedy, Horizons, Keep it gold





11. How to be Human – Chelsea Cutler









I got to know Chelsea on her joint EP with Jeremy Zucker (Brent). Something about her voice always gets me. A bit coarse and perfect for emotional laden songs whether it’s a pop song like ‘Sad tonight’ or a heart wrenching ballad like ‘I was in heaven’. This album has a balanced mix of pop songs and ballads centred about losing love. Two things stand out on the album; Chelsea’s song writing prowess and her sincere vulnerable lyrics.





My
favourite track off the album is ‘I was in heaven’. The lyrics – ‘you don’t see what you saw in me when you
said you’ll never
leave’ broke me
and helped me process the pain of being walked out on.





Favourite Tracks – What would it take, I was in heaven, Are you listening, Nj, Somebody else will get your eyes, I miss you, Lucky, Crazier things





10. Lady Like – Ingrid Andress









I got to know Ingrid Andress and her debut album from Reward’s Favourite Country  Albums/EPs of 2020, so far. The theme of this album bothers on Love and the timeline of relationships.





I feel
this is a concept album in reverse. It sort of tells a story when you listen to
the album from the last track to the first. She knows who she is on Track 8
(Lady Like) and won’t be put in a box. On Track 7 (Life of the party) she is at
a party looking happy and fly, but within she is hurting because her lover left
her. Track 6 (More Hearts than Mine) has her reminiscing about the
disappointment the breakup will have on her folks who are also vested in her
relationship, while Track 5 (Anything but love) has her struggling to forget
her lover who has since moved on.





Track 4 (The Stranger) has her wishing they could start over and meet afresh in a bar as strangers and rekindle the love, while on Track 3 (We’re not Friends), she finds herself in a situationship, likely a rebound. She says they may pretend to be just friends but kissing at 2am, is definitely not what friends do.





On Track 2 (Both), she gives her rebound guy an ultimatum, either he is in fully or he is out as he can’t do both. Track 1 (Bad advice) explains how the rebound was a bad advice from her friends and how she is always taking bad advice to move on from breakups.





This might
not have been Ingrid’s idea about the album, but I think it fits perfectly well
or it’s just my overzealous love for concept albums.





‘Both’ is
my favourite track off the album because it depicts a situationship I recently walked
away from. I was the indecisive one, not wanting to commit but wanting to enjoy
the perks of a relationship. I knew it was not fair to the other and so I ended
it.





“You’re blurring the lines
You’re playing two sides
Just make up your mind





You can tell me to stay
You can push me away
Have space or get close
But you can’t do both
You can kiss me goodnight
Or kiss me goodbye
Baby, love me or don’t
But you can’t do both”





Favourite Tracks – Both, The Stranger, Anything but love, Life of the party, Lady like





9.  Walls – Louis Tomlinson









The last
of the One Direction lads to release a solo album. The album opens with the punk
rock genre track - ‘Kill my mind’ which tells the listener that he is setting
his own path and not following the now defunct One Direction band’s britpop
sound. Though tracks like ‘Don’t let it break your heart’, ‘Always you’ and
‘Defenceless’ sound like typical One Direction songs, his path is quite clear. It’s
been interesting watching each of the ex-members of the band find their individual
sound. I have always loved Louis for his unique somewhat cracked voice and
always felt he will go the rock genre route.





This album
is majorly Britpop and Indie rock. The album revolves around the theme of loss
and hope. This is not surprising considering the tragedy Louis has had to deal
with following the death of his mother and then his sister. ‘Two of us’ feels
like the core of the album, a song he wrote about his late mother.





Sadly the release of the song was followed by the death of his sister. Knowing this makes the pain in the song even achier. 





Favourite Tracks – Don’t let it break your heart, Two of us, Walls, Habit, Always you





8. Kid Krow – Conan Gray









I was on
music explore on twitter one night when I came across Conan’s tweet announcing
the release date for his debut album. He stated the songs were a reflection of
his life story. Being a sucker for art emanating from personal experiences, I
took note of the date. Getting this album was worth it. The album is filled
with bold production different from the commercial sound out there. I love how
each song tells a story about a group of friends growing up together. Mostly, it’s
his unconventional sound and song writing prowess that gets to me.





Favourite Tracks – Comfort crowd, The cut that always bleeds, Fight or flight, Affluenza, Little Leauge, The Story





7. Love is not dying (Deluxe Edition) – Jeremy Zucker









After 8 EPs,
Jeremy finally released his debut full length LP and it is everything. I
remember feeling different range of emotions the first time I listened to the
album. The 24year old has built his art around dark lyrics and moody sound
which sometimes sounds way too mature for someone that young, you begin to
wonder what lemons life must have thrown him. His joint EP ‘Brent’ with Chelsea
Cutler is one of my favourite EPs.





Love is
not dying album (Deluxe edition) takes you on a complete emotional ride with a
theme around heartbreak. This album is sad and beautiful with powerful moments
ranging from pain to resilience and then surrender.





What
stands out on this LP is Jeremy’s perfect mastery of the use of
silence/quietness in the production. This shows up heavily on tracks like ‘Orchid’,
‘Full stop’ and ‘Julia’, giving the songs a weightier feel. On ‘Full stop’, sad
lyrics about struggling with letting go of lost love flows perfectly with
initial slow minimal production that builds all through the track until the
bridge where marching bands rise to a crescendo and then comes to a halt,
fading into a quiet ending that transitions safely into the next track. This is
one track sure to take you on an emotional journey.





Favourite Tracks – Somebody loves you, Orchid, Not your friend, Full Stop, Julia, Always I’ll care, you were good to me (bonus track), comethru (bonus track)





6. Heartbreak Weather – Niall Horan









This album
didn’t sit well with me on first listen. I felt disappointed that after delivering
an outstanding debut folk album, he went the way of commercial pop on his sophomore
album.





However,
being a champion of artistic freedom, diversity and growth, I gave the album another
listen, this time with an open mind. I realized that same way I initially
dismissed Taylor Swift’s first pop album (1989) which later turned out to be an
excellent pop album, Niall’s Heartbreak Weather album also turned out to be a
good typical pop album – catchy
songs lacking lyrical depth.





The theme
of the album can easily be deduced from album title. However, due to the loud pop
funky production on most of the songs, the emotions that should carry the album
theme are lacking. Niall did well on songs like ‘Dear Patience’, ‘Bend the
rules’, ‘Put a little love on me’ and ‘Still’. I think these songs saved the
album for me.





The closing
track – ‘Still’ feels like it was taken off his previous Flicker album. ‘No
judgement’ is one of my favourites though it has striking similarities with ‘I
don’t care’ by Ed Sheeran ft Justin Bieber off of the former’s last EP - No 6
Collaborations project.





This album
is not an artistically great album but it’s definitely that album you keep
listening to repeatedly even though it’s not your typical poison. It’s supposed
to be an album about heartbreak, but ironically it’s more of a feel good album.





Heartbreak
weather could easily be another One Direction album. I’ll love him to go back
to singing folk songs because that makes him standout as an artist, especially
as it’s very distinguishable from the typical One Direction sound.





Favourite Tracks – Dear Patience, Bend the rules, Put a little love on me, Arms of a stranger, No Judgement, San Francisco, Still





5. Boo of the Booless – Chike









After
wowing everyone with his rendition of James Arthur & Emeli Sande’s Roses on
his blind audition for The Voice (Nigeria), Chike gifts us with one hell of a
decent album that perfectly blends a bit of pop and RnB while maintaining the
afrobeat sound. The first half of the album is comprised of mid tempo jams that
is sure to get you moving your body, while the other half comprises mostly
ballads that accentuates the effect of his unique vocals. Everything about the
album is almost perfect; song arrangement, lyrical content, production and
track length.





The opening track serves as an appetizer as to what is to come, a bit slower in tempo than most of the first half songs. However, from track two, the album sort of peaks and begins a pleasant ride till the closing high life track that has him singing mostly in Igbo dialect. The change in genre on this track gives the album a refreshing closing.





For an
album filled with great lyrical content, the album title feels like a lazy
effort. The album is centred on love. The track ‘Forever’ is that song you send
to bae to reassure them about how much you love them. I remember hearing
‘Faithful’ for the first time on my way to work and thinking to myself that the
song felt like a letter from my ex to me.





The lyrics fit perfectly in relation to how we felt about each other at a point, but one of us had already moved on to a new relationship.





“Your smile still lightens up the day
Your voice still ringing in my brain
I hope your memory will fade





And cheating is a sin
Especially with someone who really loves me
So I’ll make sure not to fall to day





I’m faithful
I can’t be the one for you
I have someone who loves me
Even though I think that I love you”





This is
not your typical album from a Nigerian artiste. It falls in the same category
of new age singers who have chosen to follow the less commercial path and
deliver songs with lyrical depth and less radio friendly sounds.





Boo of the booless is an impressive debut album which was released independently without the backing of a record label. The quality of the album has been its selling point and I think Chike deserves all the success for this body of art. It was hard to pick my favourite tracks as I actually love all the songs. This is a no skip album.





Favourite Tracks – Nakupenda, Forever, Amen, Finders Keepers, Insecure, Forgive, Faithful, Watching over me





4. Remember to Remember Me – Isak Danielson









I found
out about the sophomore album from Isak on someone’s Insta story. The person
used ‘Remember to remember me’ as backing music on her picture. Hearing his
emotion filled vocals as the music played, reminded me of how good his debut
album was.





I went to
check out the single and found out he had actually released a full length album
with that track as the Album title. Well, that’s the standout track on the
album.





This album
is honest and vulnerable. Isak is not afraid to bare his weakness in letting go
of an elusive lover who though toxic, still has a strong hold on him. The
opening track – ‘Religion’ gives an insight to his ex-lover’s manipulative
ways.





People
make statements of leaving a relationship that no longer serves you, like it’s
a switch you can just flip on all the memories and walk away without feeling
any pain or struggle. This album portrays the cycle of frustration, as well as
the back and forth you go through trying to let go of someone you are still in
love with.





On ‘Remember to remember he sings solemnly -





“I don’t like the part of moving on
I hate to say goodbye
I can’t stand this bedroom all alone
When everything reminds me of you laying by my side”





Songs like
‘Part of me’, ‘Love me wrong’, ‘I don’t need your love’ and ‘Feel something’
perfectly covers his turmoil, almost like he is losing his sanity trying to
reason with himself on why letting go is the right thing to do, but yet his
heart fails him and he still wants the lover to rescue him.





The
closing track ‘Last song’ is a tired and defeated Isak accepting his pain and
reality, he says his final goodbye as he watches his lover fade away. I think
this is one of the lowest points, to watch someone you love dearly slip away
from you. Even when you are ready to ignore their faults, knowing that no words
you say or actions can prevent them from leaving. To watch it all fall apart
helplessly, tragic.





The album
also covers his struggle with anxiety on songs like ‘Silence’ and ‘Light up’. The
quality of this album makes it so hard to believe Isak is just 22 years old.





Favourite Tracks – Remember to remember me, Light up, Feel Something, Last song





3. Bigger Love – John Legend









I have
always loved John Legend’s albums in small bits. I find his full length albums a
bit boring. A couple of songs sound great but listening to the entire album?
I’ll sleep off half way.





However
that’s not the case on his seventh studio album - Bigger love, which as the
title clearly infers is about love in all its spheres. From the opening track -
‘Ooh Laa’ (which samples The Flamigos’s I Only Have Eyes for You), the loud
production (reminisce of his last album – Darkness and Light) keeps you alert
as his creamy voice pleasantly drools over each note.





When I
heard the first single off the album – ‘Conversations in the dark’, I thought
this was going to be the peak of the album. But the album boasts of deep cuts
that gives the song a run for its shine. The album has a good mix of up-tempo
songs and ballads.





This album
would have been much stronger if he had pruned the track length, I mean 16
tracks is quite a lot.





Favourite Tracks – Wild, U move I move, Focused, Conversations in the dark





2. Graves into Gardens – Elevation Worship









For me,
this album starts from track 3. The first two tracks feel out of place on the
album. They have strong messages, but the tempo of the tracks doesn’t feel
right with the switch in flow from track three till the album closes out.





Reward
shared ‘Graves into Gardens’ track with me early in the year. The song is about
restoration and it moved me. I heard the first single off the album – ‘The
Blessing’ on Television one evening and I had to shazam it, it was a pleasant
surprise seeing it was by Elevation worship. These two tracks had me
anticipating the album.





The album
is a blessing and gives one this unexplainable calm, reminding us of God’s
sovereignty. This album is a call for us to surrender and hold on to God during
these weird times because He’s never lost a battle.





I fell in
love with this album on first listen. A true worship experience that leaves
your soul watered.





This is one of the most beautiful gospel albums out there. Songs sure to give you chills are ‘Graves into Gardens’ and ‘What would you do’. I’m thankful for this album, especially in a year like 2020 that has been filled with a roller coaster of emotions.





Favourite Tracks – Graves into Gardens, The Blessing, Available, Never lost, What would you do





1. One Day at a Time - Kodaline









This album
could not have come at a better time. With all that’s been happening around the
world, this album breathes hope and brings light into what has seemingly been a
dark year.





The theme
of the album is hope and it preaches the importance of a support system, having
someone to lean on when things are not so good. The track ‘Sometimes’ is about
dealing with anxiety and loss.





I love how
precise and straight to the point the 10 tracks on the album are. All songs complement
each other in preaching the message of hope and unconditional love.





This album
was love on first listen for me, another no skip album from 2020 with deep
social message. I felt most of the songs deeply. The track – ‘Saving grace’
ignited a spark in me. Just as the album title goes, this period we all have to
take it one day at a time till it all blows over and we are back to the normal
we are familiar with.





I know how hard it is to reach out to others when life gets overwhelming, personally I struggle with this. The lyrics of ‘Say something’ captures this feeling so well - 





“When it cuts so deep when you try to speak
But the words don’t come out right
You can lean on me when it’s hard to breathe
You can call me anytime
So please
Say something to me”





See, this album is a life saver. I think this is what they were going for on their previous album – Politics of living, however that album got a bit incohesive.





Favourite Tracks – Wherever you are, Sometimes, Saving Grace, Say something, The Evening, Heart open





WORTHY MENTIONS





  1. Dear Happy – Gabrielle Aplin (Genre - Pop)
  2. South Side – Sam Hunt (Genre – Country pop)
  3. Manic – Halsey (Genre
    -
    Pop)
  4. Now or Never – Brent Kissel (Genre - Country)
  5. Yellow – Brymo (Genre
    -
    World)




UNDERWHELMING ALBUMS





Looking for the Good – Jason Mraz









This is not a bad album per say. I’m actually impressed Jason decided to release a reggae album. However, like someone once said – reggae is one beat over which different musicians sing different lyrics. Not entirely true though, UB40, Bob Marley and even new age reggae artist – Jah Cure don’t have all their songs having similar production. The one major flaw on the 7th studio album from Jason Mraz, is the similar production on all songs, making the album lacklustre.





Chromatica – Lady Gaga









Most
persons thought Lady Gaga will continue from the massive success of ‘Shallow’
on her next studio album, but the first single – ‘Stupid Love’ buried that
thought. It was a taste of what was to come; another Artflop Artpop.





Comparing this album with The Fame or The Fame Monster will be a long shot. Born this way is the last good album by Lady Gaga. What confuses me is, she is not new to this genre. Her first three albums which were superb were also dance/electropop. They had depth and melody. Chromatica is a complication of similar sounding overproduced songs with most of the songs lacking melody.  Something is not working anymore, her songs are now so easily forgettable and boring. She needs to go back to the drawing board for real.





Velvet - Adam Lambert









I thought when Adam finally releases the side B of Velvet, it will have more of the retro mid tempo sound he went for on the first two released singles. Sadly, I think Adam lost the plot he initially had for this album. Turned out to be a very huge let down and his worst album ever. I’m not sure his touring with Queen is having any good effect on his solo career. It’s sad to watch him lose identity and take up the band’s persona.





MISSED OUT FAVOURITE ALBUMS FROM 2019





Onwards to Zion – Vancouver Sleep Clinic









I was aware of the sophomore album from Vancouver
Sleep Clinic but I had not yet let go of my poverty mentality embraced
streaming. I couldn’t find a link for download. However, this was one of the
first albums I streamed after I signed up on Apple music, thanks to the nudges
from Reward.





A follow up to his superb debut album – Revival, Tim Bettinson who makes up the band - Vancouver Sleep Clinic, shows growth on his sophomore. Honestly, you won’t even think for a second that it was released by a 24yr old. I love his sound and it’s perfect for times when I want to shut the world out and tune into myself and feelings.





Lessons in Love – Sinead Harnett









I was talking with an ex, and I asked what albums helped in healing from our breakup. This was one of the albums listed. Standout track for me is ‘Him too’. The words felt like it was directed at me. I realized that while I listened to albums that made me drown in my pain, the other was listening to albums that helped forget me. I guess we all heal differently, huh? Anyway this is one beautiful RnB album I didn’t know existed till that conversation early this year.





Royal Soldier – Jah Cure









I listened to this album last year and loved it but it didn’t make my
year end list. I’m putting it on this list due to Jason Mraz’s underwhelming ‘Looking
for the Good’ album. Royal Soldier is how to do a contemporary reggae album.
All the songs have their own distinct reggae sound and persona. This album is
pleasant to the ears and will have you jamming to the energetic beats.